2001-12-02 - 2:30 a.m.

lately i have been feeling nothing.

my perpetual state of calmness is back and i can't get rid of it.

i wish i could find someone to come in and rock the boat.

i keep trying to create things to look forward to. mail order, apartment searching, job searching. my life is going towards a drastic change soon that is something i am really looking forward to. untill then i can just wait. thinking about it can be just as fun as the actual doing part. or atleast make for a good substitute untill it actually happens.

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